Sweet Melodies!!

My doctor could set-up an emergency appointment for me; so we had gone to see her. Though I was feeling less hot as finally at around 3:00 a.m. DH had forced a crocin tablet down my throat despite all my protests that I won't take anything not prescribed my doctor. I guess, he was equally tired of me tossing on the floor. Nevertheless, I still was feeling very tired and my eyes were still burning and felt like red burning coal!!

Poor hubby!! He got a scolding from the assistant - ha ha!! No, not for giving me tablet, but for assuming that I have a temperature! Yeah, we got to know that the pregnant women do feel hotter than they would normally have as a whole human is building up inside!! Hmm.. at least I was right that it's my tadpole's doing ;o)

Enter the doctor, and she looks at my tired face, asks me to lie down, uncovers my belly and starts the check-up. She has a instrument in her hand and all I can hear is a loud rumbling like a thunderstorm or something. "Oh!oh! I did have a clear potty in the morning! Do I have such a bad stomach? Is that the reason that I feel so awful!!" these are the thoughts that went across my head all at the same time as I look from Uttam's face to the doctor's to the instrument. I am still looking at my doctor's face trying to figure out what she would say, when suddenly I hear my DH's thrilled voice, "Baby's heartbeat!!!" and I see a smile breaking on her face as she removes the instrument, equally excited that one of us could decipher that. And I find myself shouting, "Please I want to hear that again. Is that what it was?" as I again look at both theirs smiling nodding faces. ("Oh!Ohh!! Why do these guys want me to keep out of it!!") and as I feel the instrument back on my tummy, almost instantly, I can make out the distinct sound this time and believe me, never heard anything more melodious than this. It sounded like "buh buh.. buh buh.. buh buh".. lots faster than ours!!(Doctor said it was around 140 per minute.. almost our double!!) And I could hear myself saying, "WOW! That’s my baby!!" as all three of us were smiling ear to ear!! It was more thrilling to hear than either reading or writing... take my words for it!! I can still hear it distinctly in my ears. I hope I am able to record it the next time.Oh, and yes, I was still feeling unwell and this time (surprisingly), doctor agreed that I look pathetic and need some rest and gave me a week off from work. That means a week off for DH too or at least, he will have to work from home. I am not feeling well, you see... ;-))

Baked in Oven!!!

That's what I feel like ever since I woke up today.

Still thought would be able to make to work and would feel better as the day progresses. But, as soon as I reached office after more than usual tiring two and a half hours of travel, I was desperate to come back home and take rest. Lucky for me, though being at the client office, I was allowed to be off from work early (or may be the look on my face softened them up). Still, by the time I reached home, it was already 5 in the evening and I felt like I am just out of a hot furnace!! DH went to buy fruits and juices for me so that I might feel cooler. But did I?!!?

It's 11:30 p.m. and I am not able to sleep nor am able to bring my body temperature down!! I hope I am not running a fever. DH makes a point to buy thermometer very first thing in the morning. May be on our way to see the doctor.. Meanwhile, I keep shifting from one side to other, feeling restless and tired of experiencing burning pee every half an hour!!

Little Tadpole, is this your heat energy that's coming out from me??

Breaking the news!!

Since our knowledge, we have been debating how to break the news to our families. I did not want it to be the just usual way of calling them up and telling them.. had wanted to share in some different way. Besides, calling from US would have meant to call up four different numbers, at least, to make sure that nobody important is missed out or gets the news before we convey it to them. We decided to send them the copy of the first ultrasound and have a look at my 'tadpole' before talking over the phone.

Here's the e-mail that DH drafted:

Congratulations!!

I am not sure, what should I be writing?
Should I congratulate you or myself at this juncture....

All I can say, by the grace of almighty and your wishes we all have been entering into a new role soon

We (Swati and me) into a new role of parenthood..and you might be becoming Dada, Dadi, Nana, Naani, Chacha, Bua, Mama, Maami, the list is long and the occasion is great!!!!

Please find the attached photograph of the new life who is entering our lives 6.5 months from now.

Will be calling everybody soon.

-- Warm Regards,

My 'tadpole'

Have a look at my adorable li'l tadpole, as I saw him first!! Isn't he cute?!?

Nothing but 'LOVE'

Friday, the 13th
To some this day is horror and sure to bring bad luck while others would love to debate that the phobia associated with this day is nothing but superstition. To me this day carried no meaning (except for the slasher film series I had enjoyed as a teenager) until Friday the 13th of Oct'2006.

This was the day I got to see our maybaby in the most primitive form, which I lovingly call 'tadpole'! I, instantly, fell in love with approx. 2 inches sized unseeing, unhearing, and formless cute little 'tadpole' of mine and, yes who else by my DH had jumped out of his seat just to have a better look of our baby and both of us were overwhelming with joy! This sure was the loveliest moment of my pregnancy!! He (I'll take the liberty here as I can't address my unborn baby as 'it' which sounds so lifeless) was peacefully lying on his back (again, I assume) in my abdomen with his li'l unformed head and yet to be formed hind limbs all curled up; blissfully unaware of what's going on around him and outside his mama's abdomen. What a adorable picture it posed! No wonder my DH and I could instantly feel our entire parental love outburst from our hearts!!

Probable reason for this sudden rush of feelings might be attributed to the fact that we came to know about my pregnancy rather recently (as I did not experience the usual symptoms associated with the pregnancy), we never imagined or calculated that I would already have carried our baby for 10 weeks now and our baby would actually have acquired some form by now! Another reason could be that though lot many times earlier we had discussed how we plan to up bring our baby and since our knowledge, had started planning for the arrival and mentally preparing ourselves and each other for this new role of 'parenthood', we had never given a single thought over how our baby would look like, be it later or even now for that matter!

Whatever be the reason, the truth is that I am in love with my 'tadpole' months before he steps into this world and I can't wait to hold him in my hands and tell him exactly what I feel - nothing but 'LOVE'!